Sunday, February 7, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Anonymous Spammers
Due to spammy comments from now on all comments will have to be approved. I don't want to stop allowing anonymous comments....because I want people to be able to speak freely...but I don't appreciate the spam. In the future if you're going to leave anonymous spammy links to sites....you should at least spell the word "business" correctly on your site. That makes it appear more credible. Just sayin'....
Disappointment
I've recently been informed that when we started getting off track here at Bloggest Loser that there were people who felt abandoned. To you...I sincerely apologize. I apologize for my lack of motivation. I apologize for the shame I felt when I (who was supposed to be blogging about losing weight) wasn't losing weight. I felt hypocritical...and it didn't feel right to post here under such circumstances. I disliked myself...and everything about me. I disliked the fact that I couldn't stay motivated...much less motivate anyone else. You know what though? That's what got us all here in the first place...so you know...no matter how disappointed you were...you had to know it was coming. We have all had lack of motivation. That's why WE'RE FAT. Well, maybe not if you have health issues...but you know what I mean. To be honest...I felt as I lost motivation that some of y'all had been lost long ago. Look back through the posts here. How many comments are on posts I made? How many people actually linked up on Sundays...Mondays...Tuesdays....shoot, the link stayed open for a week! I issued a challenge...and 2 people met it. TWO. Hyla...who did 31 situps/crunches...and Tina. Who did almost 200. Did y'all try? Really? Were you sincerely motivated or did you expect me to do it for you? Some of you asked if you could eat Cheetos as a challenge. Yes, I realize it was a joke...but at the time it still felt like "No one is serious". Someone offered to buy Bloggest Loser. When I declined and tried to reach out...I got nothing. Not even a "You suck...". Nothing. I tried to go to a gym and reach out. I need help. I know that now. But there again...I got squat. All these things...just made me feel even worse. Some blog writer/motivator I was.
Yes. I'm angry. And Hurt. I disappointed you. I ruined your life. I abandoned you....but really...when did you abandon ship? Honestly. Ask yourself that. I'm human...and so are you. I realize that as this blog's owner (co-owner...whatever) that a good bit of the responsibility lies on my shoulders to motivate those around me...but sometimes the motivator needs motivating...or feedback at least.
HI. MY NAME IS KRISTEN AND I'M A FAT WOMAN WITH A LACK OF TRUE MOTIVATION. I'M FATTER THAN EVER AND IT'S GOING TO KILL ME....BUT IN ALL HONESTY I WOULD REALLY LIKE A MAGIC PILL TO MAKE IT BETTER. THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN THOUGH...SO IF THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO CAN HELP ME...TRULY HELP ME....E-MAIL ME. MY E-MAIL IS HANDSHOUSEANDHEARTFULL (AT) GMAIL (DOT) COM. I DON'T WANT YOU TO SELL ME ANY OF YOUR PRODUCTS THAT AREN'T GOING TO WORK. I WANT YOU TO TEACH ME HOW TO CARE FOR ME. HOW TO CARE THAT I'M SLOWLY KILLING MYSELF. I WANT YOU TO TEACH ME TO BE A SELF-MOTIVATOR. I WANT YOU TO TEACH ME TO LOVE ME FOR ME...AND TO NOT TURN TO FOOD EVERY TIME SOMETHING HAPPENS IN MY LIFE. I WANT AN HONEST TO GOODNESS PERSON TO HELP ME. I'M NOT DOING ANYONE ANY GOOD UNTIL THEN. I GAVE UP A LONG TIME AGO...AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHERE TO FIND THE SKINNY GIRL INSIDE ME. I THINK I ATE HER INTO A COMA.
I'm sure I'll regret this post later...but right now I'm hurt...and angry...and...really, really mixed up. I'm sorry. Getting my feelings out here is better than eating though. Which is what I honestly want to do right now.
Yes. I'm angry. And Hurt. I disappointed you. I ruined your life. I abandoned you....but really...when did you abandon ship? Honestly. Ask yourself that. I'm human...and so are you. I realize that as this blog's owner (co-owner...whatever) that a good bit of the responsibility lies on my shoulders to motivate those around me...but sometimes the motivator needs motivating...or feedback at least.
HI. MY NAME IS KRISTEN AND I'M A FAT WOMAN WITH A LACK OF TRUE MOTIVATION. I'M FATTER THAN EVER AND IT'S GOING TO KILL ME....BUT IN ALL HONESTY I WOULD REALLY LIKE A MAGIC PILL TO MAKE IT BETTER. THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN THOUGH...SO IF THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO CAN HELP ME...TRULY HELP ME....E-MAIL ME. MY E-MAIL IS HANDSHOUSEANDHEARTFULL (AT) GMAIL (DOT) COM. I DON'T WANT YOU TO SELL ME ANY OF YOUR PRODUCTS THAT AREN'T GOING TO WORK. I WANT YOU TO TEACH ME HOW TO CARE FOR ME. HOW TO CARE THAT I'M SLOWLY KILLING MYSELF. I WANT YOU TO TEACH ME TO BE A SELF-MOTIVATOR. I WANT YOU TO TEACH ME TO LOVE ME FOR ME...AND TO NOT TURN TO FOOD EVERY TIME SOMETHING HAPPENS IN MY LIFE. I WANT AN HONEST TO GOODNESS PERSON TO HELP ME. I'M NOT DOING ANYONE ANY GOOD UNTIL THEN. I GAVE UP A LONG TIME AGO...AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHERE TO FIND THE SKINNY GIRL INSIDE ME. I THINK I ATE HER INTO A COMA.
I'm sure I'll regret this post later...but right now I'm hurt...and angry...and...really, really mixed up. I'm sorry. Getting my feelings out here is better than eating though. Which is what I honestly want to do right now.
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